LONG LOST LOVE

so it goes with am emotions that despite the fact of having abstained and tried to be loyal to only you and truthful in all matters i have lost out so trebbly thatnot anyone else can perhaps cover up the damage. i just have to finish what i know i can do best and let you too decifer what you love the most because for me i really dont know much for the closest i have ever tried to get close to you was when i got the untimely hug from you. i just dont know but i have to move on and find out ma lot prhaps somewhere where we all may never have thought would ever try to find ourselves! all this time, the opportunity you had by yo self, but now i have come to realize how much our goals do tend to shape out our future in this world, because all by now would be wedding bells perhaps under the shades of one of the most prettie beaches in the pacific. perhaps i also have to sing, ......viva forever and it seems it was all nothing but a dream, i loved you and i think i loved for real only once, i dont think it will change soon, i have to reboot ma CPU, otherwise its running too low....in loving memory of mnm.

To those who are married, .. Not married ... And soon to be married

MARRIAGE .

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly.

Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce.

I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces.

The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger.. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table.. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible.

Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning.

I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions.. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd.. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms.

His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work.

I drove alone to the office. On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more.

There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one.

Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger.. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me... She had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart.

Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out..

To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life.

My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly.. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally.

I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce.

My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card.. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion,

the car,

property,

the money in the bank, blah..blah.. blah.

These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse's friend and

do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage! If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you. If you do, you just might save a heart.

JW's Win $1.3M Discrimination Lawsuit

JW's Win $1.3M Discrimination Lawsuithttp://www.eeoc.gov/press/7-31-09.htmlThe U.S. Equal Employment Opportunity CommissionPRESS RELEASE7-31-09AT&T PAYS $1.3 MILLION TO SATISFY JUDGMENT IN RELIGIOUS DISCRIMINATIONLAWSUITEEOC Prevails in Jury Verdict and Subsequent Appeal for Two Customer ServiceTechnicians Fired for Attending Jehovah's Witness ConventionJONESBORO, Ark. - The U.S. Equal Employment Opportunity Commission (EEOC)today announced that a Satisfaction of Judgment was entered in U.S. DistrictCourt for the Eastern District of Arkansas, Jonesboro Division, in areligious discrimination lawsuit brought by the federal agency againstcommunications giant AT&T, Inc. on behalf of two male customer servicetechnicians who were suspended and fired for attending a Jehovah's WitnessesConvention. AT&T paid a total of $1,307,597 pursuant to the judgmentsentered in the case.In October 2007, a jury of nine women and
three men awarded the two formeremployees, Jose Gonzalez and Glenn Owen (brothers-in-law), $296,000 in backpay and $460,000 in compensatory damages under Title VII of the Civil RightsAct. During the four-day trial, the jury heard evidence that both men hadsubmitted written requests to their manager in January 2005 for one day ofleave to attend a religious observance that was scheduled for Friday July 15to Sunday July 17, 2005. Both men testified that they had sincerely heldreligious beliefs that required them to attend the Jehovah's Witnessconvention each year. Both men had attended
the convention every yearthroughout their employment with AT&T. Gonzalez worked at the company formore than eight years and Owen was employed there for nearly six years.The case was tried in U.S. District Court for the Eastern District ofArkansas, Jonesboro Division (Case No. 3:06-cv-00176), before Judge LeonHolmes. AT&T appealed the jury verdict to the Eighth Circuit Court ofAppeals. The Eighth Circuit sided with the
EEOC and upheld the jury verdict.The amount awarded by the jury at trial grew to $1,307,597 with theinclusion of interest and front pay. Judge Holmes granted the EEOC's requestfor an injunction prohibiting AT&T from
engaging in any employment practicewhich discriminates on the basis of religion."These two employees never should have had to choose between their jobs andtheir sincerely held religious beliefs," said EEOC Acting Chairman Stuart J.Ishimaru. "With increased religious diversity in
the workplace, employersneed to be extra vigilant in guarding against discrimination based onreligion."Title VII prohibits religious discrimination and requires employers to makereasonable accommodations to employees' and applicants' sincerely heldreligious beliefs, as long as this does not pose an undue hardship.EEOC Supervisory Trial Attorney William A. Cash, Jr., who tried the casewith agency attorney Darin Tuggle, said, "These were two outstandingemployees who simply should have been
allowed to attend the Jehovah'sWitnesses Convention as they had done during their employment with AT&T.When employers or management officials
attempt to make an example out ofemployees by discriminating against them, as
was done in this case, there isa high price to pay."EEOC Regional Attorney Faye A. Williams
of the agency's Memphis DistrictOffice, which has jurisdiction for Arkansas, remarked, "We are pleased thatthis matter is now over and these gentlemen may now move forward with theirlives. These men took a stand against a large employer for their sincerelyheld religious beliefs, and justice has prevailed."According to company information, AT&T is the largest provider of both localand long distance telephone services, DSL Internet access and wirelessservice in the United States, with 74.9 million wireless customers and morethan 150 million total customers.Religious discrimination charge filings (allegations) reported to EEOCoffices nationwide have substantially increased from 1,388 in Fiscal Year1992 to 3,283 in FY 2008.The EEOC enforces federal laws prohibiting employment discrimination.Further information about the EEOC is available on its web site atwww.eeoc.gov.

There is Sunshine in A Smile.

Life is a mixture of sunshine and rain,Laughter and pleasure, teardrops and rain.
All days can't be bright but it's certainly true,There was never a cloud the sun didn't shine through.
And you'll find when you smile your day will be brighterAnd all your burdens will seem so much lighter.
For each time you smile you will find it's trueSomebody, somewhere, will smile back at you.
And nothing on earth can make life more worthwhileThan the sunshine and warmth of a beautiful smile!

growing up and realities of life.

Check out these romantic dating ideas and make your date a roaring success:
I am there, I am notOne of the oldest tricks in the book is to show the person you date how busy you are. Men or women, both sexes love to date someone who's rare and outta ordinary. Showing yourself as a busy person makes it seem you are taking time from your busy schedule to meet your date and that's what makes you special. It's showing your partner how lucky he/she is to have you there as a date. The perception will be - if your time is important, you're important. Simple tricks to do this are - Talking over the phone only for a short time and hanging up first after a conversation; keeping the appointments to some other convenient time of yours( ex: "I'm occupied that day, I can't make it. If you don't mind...let's see...what about Thursday? I'm free then.") and not calling your date constantly. Never seem too available.
Keep youself occupiedKeep yourself busy before your date. Thinking about your date over and over again can complicate the situation and make you goof it all up. Don't wait all day to attend your date, rather see it as another event that may work out or maybe not.
Be on Time Being punctual is the greatest tip for people of both sexes. Be on time for your date. It's real bad manners on your part to turn up late and let your date wait anxiously. It makes you seem rude and an insincere person to have a relationship with.
Be YourselfYou read it right. Be yourself while you date. Making an impression upon your date and be in your best self is okay but trying to be someone else is not. You can never really measure up to your partner's ideal and even if you do, you can't manage to do it forever. You’ll only get yourself stuck in a role-playing that will increasingly become difficult and irritating for you. Eventually your partner will see through your deception and be offended by your dishonesty.
Accept compliments with graceMen often complain how women can’t take a compliment properly. This is the chance for all you women to prove 'em wrong. If he tells you that you look lovely in that dress, return his compliment with a simple, "Thank you". Do not contradict him or go into the details of the dress to justify your beauty for it will be embarrasing, for him as well as for you. Just accept his compliment with grace. It'll show him that you know you you look great. He'll appreciate your grace and be impressed with your self-confidence and ease with yourself.
No ex-factorTalking about last boyfriend, fiancé or husband is a strict no-no for women on the first few dates. This is because when a woman talks about her ex, men usually assume that she is still bitter and angry about being dumped. Guys don’t like such an emotional baggage and there goes kaput your chances of a second meeting with him.
Stick to positive subjectsWhile dating, your partner is bound to ask you some personal questions out of curiosity. Your answers should be brief and to the point. But talking too much about how much of a pest your boss is or why you just can't patch up with your estranged father can be repulsive to your date. Pouring your heart out is okay, but not early on in a relationship. Your complaints and anguish can make your partner feel that you're not happy with yourself. How can you make him/her happy then? So, stick to positive subjects while you date.
Express Your Opinions HonestlySharing the same views as your date can be great to win him/her over but that doesn't mean you have to be servile and say 'yes' when you want to say 'no'. It can flatter your date to an extent but that will soon turn to boredom and irritation when he'she realizes you are impossible to have an intelligent conversation with. Stand firm on issues that are important to you, but don't contradict just to show you are strong. Also, don’t argue just to prove you’re right. Converse cooly and honestly. You're going on a date, not a debate.
Never compare Finally, never compare your dates in your mind. "Jane is lovely, but Joanna was sweeter or John is charming though Jack was more dashing" is the wrong approach to dating. Remember, going on a date means you're checking out a person not a product that you can buy. Each person has his/her own specialities and hence, comparing them would be inappropriate. Just give some time to your date and see what type of a person he/she is. The more you know your partner, there are chances of your discovering better things about him/her that you'd probably never have ever dreamt of.

4 d new chapta, 4 d new chance of life.

DIS MOMENT.
From this moment
Life has began
From this moment
You’re the one
Like a society
Is where I belong
From this moment ohhh

From this moment
I have been blessed
I will only
For your happiness
And for your love…..
I give my lasst breath
From this moment
Oohhhh

I give my heart to you
With all my heart,
Cant wait to live my
Life with you
Cant wait to start
You never and me
Will never be apart
My dreams came true
Because of you.

chorus
From this moment
As long as I live
I’ll love you
I promise you this
There is nothing
I’ll ever give
From this moment i
Ohhhh

You are the reason
I believe in love
Hey you are the
Answer to my prayers
For most of them
All we need
Is just the two of us
My dreams
Came true
Because … of you

Chorus
I’ll love you
I’ll love you
As long as I live
From this moment.
Ooooohhhhhhhhh.

life is tight hani, sweet herat, my love.

STAY WIZ ME.
Stay with me
Don’t fall asleep
Too soon
The angels can wait
For a moment
Come real close
Forget the world outside
Tonight, we are alone
Its finally you and i

It wasn’t meant to
Feel like this
Not without you

Chorus
Because when
I look at my life
I see pieces falling
To play
And just wouldn’t mind
Without you
When I see how
My path
Seem to end up
Falling for your face
Say to my heart
This is where we are
For this we lived from the start

Don’t be afraid
I will be by your side
Thru the life after this place
Together we are bond to fly
I wasn’t meant to
Love like this
Not without you

Chorus
I made a few mistakes, yeah
Like sometimes we so do
Into a hard way
But made it back to you

Chorus 2
Deep from the heart
This is where we are from the start.